Just had a great moment, and I needed this to bring me back to reality. Sadly, the scale still isn't moving, and I'm fearing that I'm officially in my 2nd stall. But it may be too soon to tell, I though I hit a stall a couple of months ago as well, but it started back up again. If this is a stall, i'm just hoping this one won't last 3+ weeks again....
But anyway, on to my WOW moment. So, I decided to go shopping today, because most of my clothes are a little big. Because the scale hasn't been moving, I didn't want to test out a bunch of smaller sizes to see if i've changed, I just wanted to pick out some nice stuff that doesn't look like balloon tents on me. So, I know I'm in a size 38 pants now, so I pick out a couple of different colored pants in the same style. Because they are the same, i only tried on one in the store. They fit perfectly fine, so I grab them all.
When I got home, I tried on another color of the same styled pants. I noticed that this one felt a little snug, but was actually a better fit for me than the one I tried on in the store---but that doesn't make sense, they're all the same size right?
WELL.....NO! They weren't. As it turns out, one of the "38's" i picked up had the wrong hanger on it, and it was actually a size 36. AND THEY FIT! I could comfortably zip them up, walk around, sit down, they were normal fitting 36s!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. I still think back to my size 54 pant days....and I just can't believe how far I've come. This just goes to show that the scale cannot be my defining glory. Sometimes the scale will stay the same while you are losing inches away.
Jeff...in a size 36 pants. Who would have ever thunk it? LOL
here I am, frustrated again.
So, it's been close to two weeks, and i'm still hovering around the same 238 mark. It's so frustrating. I'm at the gym every morning at like 5 am. I'm not eating all crazy, getting more than enough water (about 100 oz a day), target of 85-100 grams of protein a day---yet the scale is showing me no love. Is this another dreaded stall? God I hope not. just please let the scale move soon. I was down like 1 pound last week (sorry i haven't posted the update yet), but that quickly went up, then down, then up again....it's just a back and forth game with the same 2 pounds. I hate this, because i'm starting to get down on myself again. I was ok for a while, then I start to compare myself to others, and I get so depressed....i'll be six months post op soon, and I haven't even hit 80 pounds post op yet. It seems soooooo slow. Everyone tells me i'm looking so much better, and have lost a lot of weight, but the #'s seem to drive my sense of success rather than the mirror. This journey has a terrible mind game component. I'm driving myself insane.....
Week 22 results & 5 month comparisons
So. Week 22 is here, and i'm happy with the steady results. I was afraid I was going to stay the same or only drop 1 pound...because the scale was not moving for most of the week despite me doing everything right. But I was very pleasantly surprised when I got on the scale this morning and saw they lovely 238.8 ! Can't believe i'm in the 230's. It just keeps getting better and better.
So now that i'm about 5 months out, I wanted to do some photo comparisons. Sometimes i can be my own worst enemy, and I don't think things are moving fast enough, or that i'm changing enough. But when I look at old photos, it really puts things into perspective, so I wanted to post this, so I can always come back and look at it to remind me where i've been, and prayerfully, where i'll never be again.
Here is a photo showing me at close to my highest weight opposite from me a couple of days ago :
And now, here's a comparison that damn near brought me to tears. I cannnot believe this was me. It almost seems like i'm looking at someone I don't know. But it was me.....sad, but true. The 'before' pic on the left was me at my younger sister's wedding in 2008. On the right, is me in the same exact dress shirt I wore to the wedding. It now looks like a circus tent on me LOL! Man....if this isn't motivation to stay on track, then I don't know what is.
And finally, here is just plain ol' me...5 months post op. I've got a ways to go, (my stomach doesn't seem to want to go anywhere!), but I'm definitely not where I was :)
So now that i'm about 5 months out, I wanted to do some photo comparisons. Sometimes i can be my own worst enemy, and I don't think things are moving fast enough, or that i'm changing enough. But when I look at old photos, it really puts things into perspective, so I wanted to post this, so I can always come back and look at it to remind me where i've been, and prayerfully, where i'll never be again.
Here is a photo showing me at close to my highest weight opposite from me a couple of days ago :
And now, here's a comparison that damn near brought me to tears. I cannnot believe this was me. It almost seems like i'm looking at someone I don't know. But it was me.....sad, but true. The 'before' pic on the left was me at my younger sister's wedding in 2008. On the right, is me in the same exact dress shirt I wore to the wedding. It now looks like a circus tent on me LOL! Man....if this isn't motivation to stay on track, then I don't know what is.
And finally, here is just plain ol' me...5 months post op. I've got a ways to go, (my stomach doesn't seem to want to go anywhere!), but I'm definitely not where I was :)
